The Dark Side of Bamboo Ladder

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Looks like this bamboo ladder is easy to use it, but have you seen the dark side of bamboo ladder?

My feet stepped up one by one, trembling. When I took the last step, I couldn't breathe well, I looked down to my mom who held the bamboo ladder to protect me. That time was the only way to go upstairs, using bamboo ladder only. Bamboo ladder brought me to higher place against gravity. I tried to gain much confidence to go upstairs, but I failed. That day, I realized stepping up with bamboo ladder is such a nightmare. My mind just kept focusing on my worries. Worries that I would fall, worries that my feet would slip. In fact, those worries did not happen. I easily gave up, and stepped down. After I reached the ground, I regretted the choice that I chose. I regretted that I did not even pay off my curiosity. I did regretted that I didn't see a beautiful scenery at the upstairs there. I asked my mom how she did that. She said at first, she's anxious but she only looked at the upstairs and her desire kept in her mind. Forgetting anxiety, she just kept focused what she wanted to reach, and she did it. I'm questioning myself, am I too easy to give up? Or am I too worry to imagine something bad that might not happen? I should keep focus what I want to reach than worries. Worries only obstruct the goal, worries only kill positive minds, and worries only lose a chance. The chance to see a beautiful scenery. That's how life, life of youth. Do what you want to reach as young as possible. When you're old, you don't have to regret coz you did what you want when you're young.

I'm questioning myself, am I too easy to give up? Or am I too worry to imagine something bad that might not happen?