Dear Someone that always Inspires Me~

I just read my favorite book. The book that changed me into a better person. I once show off to my teacher and my online friends since it inspires me so much. It might a little bit weird for you who is not familiar to read book. However, thanks for this book who gives me different perspective about life and love. The book called Independent 24.

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"The teachers refused continue teaching him because he doesn't follow the standard of learning. If I were him, I would not respect the teachers at all. However, he said differently."

I still remember when the first I read the book. It was when I'm quite depressed about thesis of my bachelor degree. That day, I underestimated me whether I can do it or not. It's terrifying, really. Facing fierce lecturer to accept my thesis almost everyday, I lost my nerve. I almost gave up. Then, I read one chapter that explains about a student and two teachers. The teachers refused continue teaching him because he doesn't follow the standard of learning. If I were him, I would not respect the teachers at all. However, he said differently. He kept respect the teachers and showed that it's not student's fault or teachers' but it just different methods to learn. There's no right or wrong in learning as long as we have same purpose as an achievement. That day, I gained confidence as much as I can. I don't care how many times I got rejection from my lecturer but I'm sure the lecturer will accept my efforts as long as I showed him strong determination to graduate soon. Then, I'd been accepted after one month striving hard to get lecture's approval. I was so grateful that day, my hardwork was paid off.

"By his writing, I can feel how terrible his life was just to pursue his dreams and wanted to make his parents proud."

You think it's ending? No, it's only beginning. I had to extend one semester more because one of my supervisor is perfectionist and the progression of my thesis became late. I felt so sorry that day to my parents, I felt I wasted their money so much. So, I took the rest of my money that I got from my scholarship to help my parents paid my college's tuition fee. That day I felt so stupid and useless. Thanks to my mom who always listened my problems and gave me some solutions. Whenever I felt down, I always read my favorite book. That day, I opened a chapter that told me about his trainee life. By his writing, I can feel how terrible his life was just to pursue his dreams and wanted to make his parents proud. Living in different countries and far away from home, always press himself to practice practice and practice more until he got injuries, and his strong willingness to achieve his goals. It's a long long story that it's hard to describe in this blog. The most important thing I've got was never give up! With a great effort I collected my courage to face that perfectionist lecture. I stayed in library longer just searching a suitable book or journals, kept in touch to my college friends to exchange knowledge, and don't forget to hang out with my bestfriend and family (It really helped me to relieve my insecurities). Since I have much time, I'm bored so I decided to take a part-time job. At first, my mom didn't agree to my decision, but I took it anyway so I could feel more valuable to the others while I'm dealing with my own thesis. That day, I'm blessed being a teacher even until now~

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"I thought  the happiness would stay longer but the fact not."

Did I get my bachelor degree? Yeapp I did it! That time, I'm very proud I could see my parents' smiles. Also my bestfriends! All my bestfriends were home and celebrated my graduation. Woww, it's so cool. Next time, my turn to make you happy my girls (Never hesitate to contact me if the day comes). I thought  the happiness would stay longer but the fact not. I've got depression again when my dad really insisted me to be a teacher in school, but I didn't want to because I'm gonna achieve my crazy dream first. I thought I would get support from my big family, but they asked me to give up and just marry someone. Getting many rejection from job that I really want made me frustrated. Again, I've got my mom by my side and also many new online friends around Indonesia and some around the world since I joined volunteer and kept learning new language. Since then, I felt there were many people still needed me and also my students that I've been taught! I even established my own English course. Thanks for my mom who always supports me. Love you~

"He explained that it's easy to like someone but it's not easy to make commitment to one person. Saying "I love you" means you have responsibility to the girl."

Time passed by, I almost forgot my feeling in real life. Having someone special in my life? Nahh. My parents wants me to look for someone by myself but I have no intention to get engaged to someone. I felt I was bad at relationship! Lmao! Whenever I like somebody, it always gives me pain rather than happiness. Until I realize, I have soft-hearted made of glass, people who I let in my life have important role to me such as family, bestfriends and also my crushes. The bad side of this heart is when I like someone I'd never let him know but when he's with his choice, it made me more depressed and I'll easily ill. Now I'm strong enough since I read Independent 24 again. That book magically can heal me. He explained that it's easy to like someone but it's not easy to make commitment to one person. Saying "I love you" means you have responsibility to the girl. Since then, I think to have interest in someone is wasting my time and it's not good for my health. I'll only give my everything to Mr.Right. The one who takes the responsibility from my parents eye to eye. Then striving hard together and facing up and down life. That's it! That's love! Just skip playing drama, ain't have time and not cool!

You might wondering who the writer of this book is. The writer maybe a little bit strange for you, his name is 张艺兴 a.k.a Lay. He's one of the reason I'm getting strong only reading his book. Thank you for your motivation! And this is my massage for him

张艺兴宝贝
你好艺兴哥哥！ 希望你快乐 照顾你的身体
今天我开心 知道你之后我有多新朋友
我想对你说 感谢你的一切 表演 歌手 跳舞 冬季 个性
喜欢你的一切 艺兴哥哥牛掰 牛掰
我们一起走~ 当你的粉丝是我的世界最幸福的事
永远支持你！ 期待你的三胎！
兴兴 加油！ 努力努力再努力!

你的贝壳
P.S: 对不起 我会写一点中文
2018年8月31日

Uhm, sorry. No translation for now.